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Attaining the desire, know thyself

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Consciousness is the eternal light, crystallizing through my form, a seemingly solid body and wispy vague invisible soul, together here in experience... as this self I think I am... which is my own learned, practiced conception of self....My conception of what I believe I am, evolving through its changes into the realization that I am God, this realization is no end but a sure beginning...because no one here on this planet is able to tell me anything I don't already know...though they do try to sell that notion don't they?... and no person outside myself can make the decisions necessary for me to grow beyond this experience of being among people whom know nothing more than I do... So this beginning is some distant notion, of becoming more than I am here now, which indeed is the misconception....I keep in my intent... to be better ...to be more, to know and feel more... to expand awareness into more...and live more... but my idea of what that all is ...and how to get there...…

foolish wisdom found home in purpose

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So ruined in both worlds, the spiritual and the physical I seem to have left myself no option but to become that what I must be. The fool of the world...A sense of purposeless moves me to pity myself, but for how long?...how long can I do nothing in my earnest search for a purpose... for a place to be in the world, for a place to call home... pity makes a poor vantage to search from...the impending realization that I shall drift continually is not in its crystalline form, a reason to be sad... but some "programming" in my sense of whom I am ...must be triggering a sense of sadness...the fool of the world... I must believe at some deeper level that I need the purpose and this home, neither of which I have, and furthermore, detailed self scrutiny reveals to me a definite lack of the intrinsic qualities required to possess a purpose or this so called home... To have a purpose in life... one would need a desire to aim for... a goal to attain... and knowing an expectation such …

into the vision

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The hour has come, our twilight or sunrise, the dawning or sunset...for both are always present, at the falling rising hour...and we are one ...no matter how mind pushes away truth... I take you to meet Jesus, you yourself... Allah, Buddha, Krishna...Odin...Zeus...call yourself what you will, you are God... I am you pushed out from yourself, both we are, I am... he laid down within man and dreamed his dreams of eternity... we are the tombs that heavenly father lays within... deadly dreams of good and evil conquered by mind and speech... yours alone...the one undergoes a realization...a realization beyond gender, or race... and it rises from Golgotha from where he was crucified within your skull... it has been three days, or longer, but look upon the world... and seeing ourselves in this place, are you surprised that man treads in his ignorance for millennia?... never awakening screaming, killing forcing his "correct" idea upon others in offence over words or in offence over …

out of the valley in

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My choice clear on this grand morning. This wonderful life, I am living from the end... as I am no longer fractured... or confused...I am whole and confidently decided, fully aware of my desires fulfillment... I am free from want, satisfied in that knowledge of my desire fully experienced, even surpassed in its realization... I am grateful...more capable of gratitude in this rich life experience ... I am so happy to be in grateful state for everything that I have, this gratitude alone is the central dynamo of my expanding fortune...though Jesus, Father the Lord God is the source... I am the op-rent and power... my own choices of thought, feeling and belief are always becoming my wonderful moments of life. I need not wallow in dramas turbulent currents... I am merely feeling it real with all my strength all my heart mind and soul... I bring it into my life from within... the bridge of incident is all the world can see but I know from Christ it had come and not from the world... I am f…

from darkness to light on the couch

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A test of my "personality", has revealed a tendency for me to get lost within my own dreams... The statement is not one I disagree with...I won't tell you of any of the positive tendencies the same test revealed, as it is well documented that people respond to negative subjects with more frequency and with greater passion, than positive subjects... Basically if a blogger blogs on negatively expressed problems or circumstances and or situations, that negatively focused blog.....Generates more traffic than the blog. Expressing positively expressed viewpoints... about the same exact subjects... A tech giant, algorithm ...or a human behavioral tendency?... I am really just stirring the pot with that couple of sentences, aren't I?.... So if real value is identifying problems and offering solutions to those problems... how is it that the overall trend toward greater and greater negativity in our society, is progressing at such an alarming rate as it obviously is?... are pe…

Flat Earthing

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To some change in awareness that tends to feel like I am becoming more conscious of my vibration condition...self delusion is the forgotten marginalized power to change all circumstance... that man discounted in a blind rush toward destroying everything in his world....I move into my chosen state of awareness revealed to me like never before...if the process really works, what does it matter, what another thinks...faltering in this burning furnace... I am still engaging in old behaviors, but I seem to be, or I am, more aware that I am making an old choice that will keep me contained, in old familiar results... like a dog that vomits...Returns to it...but does not eat...this becoming more aware of my subconscious choices...does not always feel like a breakthrough, or an improvement... but that is my still held voices of doubt from within...echos from the past to be discarded as easily as the world discards me... I want to reaffirm to myself that it is, an improvement...that this new be…

psychopathic corporate fur trapper

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Shop Amazon Devices - $40 off Certified Refurbished Echo Plus (1st Gen). Looks and works like new. The early morning is so quiet in all ways. Soft crunching footfalls through the snow...No one awake not even the birds, just me alone with these silent words... Stirring myself with a spoon in a tin cup, I just boiled...my morning sips of hot liquid joy without anyone's approval or rebuke...Hard won peace continues... won by distant others, I will never even know of... in a place near here without me... I go to be another tourist in the crowd of shackled mediocrity...but that brief pose exposed...The motions we all go through to remain unnoticed ...are called conformity... Even there... I'm unable to maintain any outward projection, that I am at all like them... Perhaps my vanity is too strong a force...or perhaps the ideas you sold me are just failing miserably...but let me now indulge your sick vision of the future... let me describe the corporate plan for humanity below... M…

Frothing

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So the brighter side to descriptive explosions make no impact on the world's perceived surface...right away... Its the five-hundred-pound bombs of thought loaded to be released that falling towards the surface, take time in deadly arrival... Between payload triggering, and device impact ...there is an interval....It's the seed planted in rich earth, all conditions right, the grounds ph level, the moisture...The sunlight, wind... and lack of seed eating critters, lack of mold, bacteria and God knows what other variables I'm missing here... Being sustained in near perfection that allow the seed to germinate and grow...the metaphors could continue... I suppose... I could make an entire entry into this "blog" and I use that term in the widest possible sense...that thoughts and emotion and belief combined ...as a inner emoted resonance of vibration... that becomes our experience... is the causation of our life events...our inner convictions do become our world ...but…

child born in apocalypse

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Have all the points of perceptual alignment within... the within, I think I am, a lock once locked and never opened afterward...tumblers now come to their synchronized position... this agreement within self here now... doorways into fortunate moments never cease being opened... For me ...Sealed long ago, and not to be unsealed until now... sacred knowledge beyond man's Ken...for reasons beyond my fragile easily manipulated physical senses. Is divine text transferred through the mind and held secret to even myself...in a heart that no trespassing thief can find... like a sword that no enemy can use against me ...it waits...if the snake appears, I then dine, as I am the snake eater...drinking Wine of life, of living, loving feeling it real, by faith, being a doer of the word, after hearing the law, water turns to wine in my walk... we walk it... appearing in the cisterns, The wine... a child grown in understanding enough to realize that childhood is a finite span of time, letting …