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slight shift within massive change without

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Oh just by the by...speaking strictly to the unwanted and ignorantly entertained content of my entire emotional and mental content... speaking strictly to myself in some newly initiated self discipline. In order not to feel the pain you seem to want me to have, I have rejected even the idea of your presence, known or unknown...The pain drives reason and logic out of its, solely subjective and long taken for granted, oh so familiar "comfort-zone"... a solitary ugly homeless scientific process of mesurement begs on the freeway on ramp with its cardboard sign ... contempt and venom is what each passer by put in its tin cup of reliance on the kindness of strangers... unable to forgive myself the attacks I've suffered, I become the tyrant I once hated... just as science has failed by its inability to be flexible in its own far-fetched beliefs and hallucinations ... any isim...capitalism, communism and all isims throughout time always have... or will fail... but the cult of …

from here to there

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The motions of the elaborate gesticulations this actors flim-flam parade across the stage upon his fleet light feet shows... nude... the costume removed... a body of air, fire and light of every color... weightles, and nonphyisical though with a face and hands... floating by intention where it may wish or know to be... there I am ....then upon the metaphysical theatres stage posing as a string of textual expression... no longer the unkempt spittle flinging... wild eyed... frothing mouth madman... but transformed by faith... which has wrought all that is ... into the ambassador of opulence flow... what relief is found in the understanding of causation, of all physical experience?.... to know the dream for what it is.... a safe place to know God... closer than even the self... God is me... awakening from a heavy sleep... to drift in and out of the dream ...to awake daily in heaven ...though still tapping out symbols on the lowest cost cell phone on earth again...today to make some m…

proved in use by action

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Admitting a definite difference between the wanted and the actual experience ...is my measure of faith in God... how well am I interpeting the incoming entropy of life expirence?...the smaller the difference between the right held belief, and the physical experience of that belief... is the distance to travel ...the goal, the attainment to "reach"...until all I know is only Jesus Christ within me... salvation is my greatest desire to experience as fact in my world... If some un-lovely human trait is recognized in another, by me... then I am certain I have not forgiven all sin in my life... a lack of condemnation of seeming "others"...forgiveness, the offense forgotten ... now seeing everyone as God... all of them perfect and already saved... it is only for myself in this dream here now that I choose... I choose to see all others as myself pushed out from me... Gods great expansion... unstoppable ... there is nothing to do or attain or even be, yet all we each ar…

letting go of the unwanted, is a loss

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Though letting go of the unwanted makes space for something new... As this world turns memories vaguely associated to me revealing a truth perhaps greatest and most practical among these many truths, even many truths... truth-ing through me... to blurring lines between the subjective to a subjective interpretation of supposed objective "occurrences" ... nothing objective but the branch here that grew out from the vine there... yet within and no distance is truth or real... To finally understand that the illusion conceals a"fact" that life... or your life...my life... all life... is all subjective... all imaginary... even the poop in the bottom of my metaphysical pants... here straining upon the digital stage... the steaming pile of symbolic being... in excrement form... vapors of powerful odor penetrating an incarnate recognition... the great ca-ca... over all other ca-ca's out there floating through the either... a most practical brand of bovine grass processi…